wouldn't you love to be this passionate about your work?

Andy Warhol's Blow Job

iAre.

I think regret comes into play when/the end/ isnt/ as expected/ in which case/ i'll regret/ every day/ until i am perfected

If Today Was Your Last Day (Album Version) - Nickelback

laugh at yourself.

a recent comparison... i found it funny.

iAre.

Imitation does little in comparison to inspiration.

His Dream - Asher Roth

iAre.

Always consider, you're not nearly educated enough to worry.

i am.

I was so inspired watching Will.i.am on Oprah, as he vowed to send 4 high school seniors- who couldnt afford college- to college tuition *fully* paid for.

He says,
and... i don't want to write a song about it...
[i love that, btw]
i want to act on it...
and put my money where my mouth is...
i recently got paid a nice amount of money to dj at a tech convention...
when my manager told me the amount i was getting, all i could do was remember when i was 14 and i asked my mom for 2 turntables and a mixer...
when i was 14 my mom's rent in the projects was 150 dollars a month...
and here i am getting $xxx,000 dollars to dj...
in this economic crisis...
i didn't feel right...
maybe i'm crazy...
or maybe my mama just raised me right...
but i didn't feel right just taking it...
but i ain't stupid...
so i took the money...
but i want to do something smart with the money...
i want to invest the money in america's "real" future...
"the youth"
i want to send a kid to college for 4 years...
and i don't want them to pay me back...
i don't want them to rack up debt...
i don't want their parents or "parent" to stress...
i just want to give them an opportunity to make their dreams come true...
i want to re-define homeland security...
i want to take action...
especially now in a financial crisis...
you don't run for the hills...
you don't leave our future leaders behind...
you don't turn your backs on the youth in the name of "recession"...
you don't...
if anything...
you make personal sacrifices and assist our "tomorrow"...
you usher in a new mind state...
you nurture our future...
you support dreams...
you provide opportunities...
and thank you Oprah for letting me take a bold stand and show the youth "we are here" for them...
thank you mama for my 2 turntables and a mixer when you couldn't even afford it...
look what those 2 turntables did...
it sent 4 strangers to college...
thank you nanny for raising my mama the way you did...
because she raised us with a heart to give...

http://www.iamscholarship.org

Never underestimate yourself; you are [all] worth it-

Peter Perfect

i love every interpretation of this song.

This post is ironic to today because i woke up exceptionally early from a very real sad dream. i was actually crying when i opened my eyes.

some dreams are...

iAre.

Few of us are stable enough to handle any more knowledge. But everyone can benefit from more sense.

my skies arent blue today.

This, more than anything, is my secret weapon &kryptonight [simultaneously]. &Not because it exists- because I have recognized that it exists. Truth is perception.
Ever look at something, anything really, and wonder how it came to be? Not something romantic like why is the sky blue? But something real like How did I get to this low point in my relationship? What did I do to deserve this beautiful person loving me? ect. Ya know, the everyday questions one ponders on long enough to decide it doesn't really matter. Only, if thought about long enough- it does. Truth_ is_ decisive.

Can you handle the truth:
The irony of truth is that it, in fact, can always be handled. There is no opinion and/or idea that can be forced upon you so that you believe it. We choose what we believe. Likewise, every opinioin and/or idea can be sculpted and molded and twisted and stretched and all those innovative things [we unknowingly do] to the point of it existing [as we'd like]. Thus a new truth arouses. The settling point is that some us lack innovation in our own thinking. Some us lack hope beyond that which we can see. And some [&by some i mean most] of us like to be told what is and what isnt. We like to be dictated. But the bravehearts- they make a new truth exist if they're not content with what is. They see what isn't and make it so. They find a new way and believe it. &Thats the secret weapon. But its not meant to be used by the faint of hearts. So when a situation arouses to which you've preconceived you cant handle it- you already are. Recognizing something [even in your mind] automatically makes it real- which ambiguously coincides with fears, and goals, and love. But those are rainy day topics-

Today we focus on truth. Truth is what you believe. So today, i say, "my skies are, in fact, not blue."

Its a good place to be, guys.

"This is your LIFE. And you only get out of it what you put into it..."

Uncle Phil, Fresh Prince of Bel Aire

five favs..

Since Facebook has added all these new applications, i've done quite well to keep my account simple &navigable. However, there is this one that i lust for from afar. 5 FAVS. So to lighten the heavy, follow-your-dream-spew that i normally deliver here's my 5 fav. features in the opposite sex.

Ive found, that if he can identify himself with these [what i assume to be simple] qualities- physical appearance HONESTLY does not matter to me. In a 5-part definition, this [see below] is my ideal man:

• Creative- To possess a sense of expression outside that which is asked, expected or common amongst peers (in a way) shows leadership. Its an eloquent, alpha quality that little regards negative feedback. and in turn, renders positivity and passion. Besides, I live to learn something new. Ideally, its what keeps a relationship fresh.
• Wisdom, with a fear of God- Many argue that wisdom comes with age and/or experience and i rebuttal against neither. But I also add that wisdom is learning while aging and while experiencing- not just going through the motions, as many of us do. I absolutely appreciate knowledge but I'd much prefer a man wise enough to know better than a man who is just smart enough to know. &a man wise enough to know better MUST know God! Spirituality &wisdom coincide; i believe.
• Witty- This a is blatant deal-breaker for me. With the first 2, seems i can wade around a while before discovering whether those sides exists or not, but this is an off-the-bat WHAM! either you it or you aint! Being that I'm so sarcastic and enlightened and well-read [not bragging], if he is anything but- there would undeniably be a language barrier. &NO_THING is more frustrating than having to say, "never mind."
• Awareness of self and others- He should be aware of his appearance- caring how he looks &what he wears. Theres no arrogance in studying finer things and having them. Aware of his hygiene- staying healthy and clean [inside &out]. Aware of his emotions- knowing how/what exactly he's feeling etc.. In, turn he should be aware of me- and those things previously mentioned [my appearance, health &hygiene, emotions etc.]. Awareness clears the line of communication and says nothing more than, "I care." Simple, yet so satisfying when executed properly.
• Sensual- I am an over-the-top romantic. Ironically, I'm not into the mushy-gushy cakes and candy-type courting. I dont thrill easily over fancy dates and expensive things. not really. But I melt inside over deep conversations and welcoming sunsets...the sense of touch and the essence of a long stare...the intertwining of fingers...the fog of breath. yea. all that excites my loins. With me, Slow is always best.

See, I'm not being physically or financially bias. I feel like if he encompasses those five qualities the physical &financial part just fall into place effortlessly. &there is no_thing on my list of five that any one man cannot do/be if he chooses. Every quality I mentioned is purposely ambiguous to structure something concrete that is important to me in a relationship. Substance unseen is still substance. But something seen may or may not have any substance at all. &I think thats where we're backwards in finding "Mr./Mrs. Right." We often focus mainly on looks &accolades only to find theres nothing to actually appreciate. Appreciate ambiguity-

the universal human bond.

There are a number of shouldnt-be-ordinary but are-in-fact-just-that-things that create the universal bond amongst us [humans]. So if by chance you find your eyes piercing at someone because of your discontent with his/her: gender, color, religion, sexuality, dreams &desires, past decisions etc. do keep in mind you both:

• have eaten something off the floor
• have been paged over the intercom in a grocery and/or department store and had to walk shamefully to customer service
• practiced aloud before sending an email, text, IM etc. just so you were sure that every word read exactly how you intended...and made corrections as you read.
• read the return message aloud AFTER already reading it to yourself just to make sure you didn't miss something
• saved that same message to use for later references.
• had unholy thoughts in church
• fabricated a story in your favor, knowing you were wrong; you just needed someone on your side
• been disgusted with your own bodily functions
• wanted to change your name
• embellished on your "likes &dislikes" just to impress someone
• examined your entire naked body in the mirror; &decided something needed to be bigger and/or smaller
• stayed up waaay past your bedtime worrying about something you couldnt control
• felt insufficient, unnecessary, &overlooked
• cried.
• tried. &still didnt understand
• understood perfectly &got mad at yourself because of it
• cared too much
• didn't care too enough
• had good intentions that came across brutally spiteful
• lost, fell short, quit
• regret
• try...

Obviously, the list is endless [feel free to add in comment] but perhaps some light can be shed on our similarities- so that we can focus on what really matters.